And maybe it is now a time in your life cycle for inner jounrey's until you are ready to travel again. I reread a few weeks ago Dan Millman's "The peaceful warrior" and I think, it's be a book you might enjoy at the present time, especially as he shares also your name. :-)
another great writer is hugh milne, who gives classes in craniosacral therapy at wupperthal, in switzerland.
he also teaches in the USA and germany. if you're interested in a shamanic approach, read his stuff. ~"When an inner situation is not made conscious, it appears outside as fate." Karl Jung~
