Fri May 25th, 2007 at 05:34:33 AM EST
I've had enough. I'm tired of drowning in a flood of bad news and pessimism and people glumly delighting in the coming collapse of civilisation, whatever the fuck that is. I'm tired of people wittering about how awful "technology" is, how they understand the true future and how only their mad impractical scheme for reform can possibly save the world. That their scheme is, improbably, the only one ever with no downsides doesn't give them pause. That "technology" is generally chosen to mean all technologies invented after some ideal date - government forms are a technology - is irrelevant. Their reforms are all that could stand between us and disaster, but they know we're all too goddamn stupid to follow them.
I'm tired of a constant stream of propaganda and bullshit. I'm tired of picking holes in the arguments of people who should know better, who do know better, who are damn well paid to know better. I'm tired of writing letters to correct the errors of those arrogant fools. I'm tired of the constant struggle to keep track of any of the thousands of problems and wars and disasters taking place across the globe.
I'm tired of constantly knowing that I know nothing, that no-one else knows a damn thing either, that we're all - including all our wonderful "leaders" - making it up as we're going along. I'm tired of people pretending they do understand as well. They're lying, or they've compressed the world into a (generally bat-shit bizarre) model which is nice and neat and bears about as much resemblance to the real world as I do to a small white duck.
I'm tired of constantly expanding the borders of my ignorance by increasing the territories that I do understand a bit.
I'm tired of watching people die senselessly as a result of "our" actions.
Fuck this blogging lark. All we're doing is whining, most of the time.
I want to give up, crawl into a hole and watch TV like a good little consumer and not bother my beautiful little mind with all the complications of the world. Embrace the sound bites. Pretend that the borders of what I know is all there is. Main-line the opiates of the masses. Join the party and carouse until the end of the world. Nothing I can do about it, might as well enjoy the ride.
Or take up arms against the idiots: that'd do it. Nice, simple, clean. What? You don't understand how people turn to violence against a system that they feel they have no power to change? It cuts through the complications and the feelings of helplessness. It's not likely to achieve much, unless you have large scale support, but at least you'd be doing something. Lot's of downsides though: the whole fighting for peace thing, the bodies, my inability to believe anything strongly enough to allow me ignore those little details.
Of course, I suppose I could try to find some sort of positive mission for this blogging lark. Something other than complaining.
The question, again, is it is possible to influence the way the world is going? Is there a point in the system where we can bring enough power to bear to alter the discourse and the path being taken? If not, why are we bothering?